Not deeply, just enough for the blood to come to release the pressure.

I just couldnt fight the urge this time.

I had to do it.

The only thing I did control was how deep I cut.

I've been trying to fight off the urge now for the past 2 weeks.

Yesterday I gave in.

I stood there a while & watched the blood beed up then trickle & flow doen my wrist.

I ran the water, dried off my hand & put a paper towel over the cuts which were already begining to sting & stop bleeding.

I clot quickly.

Its funny how ya dont feel the pain or the razor sclicing thru your skin until after its over.

Its like comming down from a high almost.

But I did control it somewhat by not cutting as deeply as I would have wanted too.

I guess thats a good thing right?