
A LOOK INTO MY BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER.
MY MOODS LEAD ME INTO MADDNESS
MY RAZOR IS MY BEST FRIEND.
CUTTING IS WHAT I DO TO RELEIVE THE PAIN.
SUICIDE IS ALWAYS A REALITY.
DEATH IS ALWAYS WELCOME



Well its been 5 days of the full doses of my meds.
I gotta admit I feel pretty good.
It was so hard to tell what was working in the hospital cuz I was having such a bad reaction to the Remeron.
But the 100mgs of Seriquil twice a day plus my Prozack seem to be working fine.
I talked to Lee for the first time since July.
It was nice.
Shes having probs with her puter again.
I said I would try to help.
I've been trying to keep myself busy.
I do the usuall chores in the morning,
like laundry and vaccumn/
Then I might get my chocolate cookbook out and make something.
In between I've downloaded a few movies.
I watched Saw 2 the other day.
I think I said this in another post, but it was fucking great!!
I'm listening to James Blunt Back to Bedlam right now.
I really like him.
I downloaded his newest album the other day.
I'm trying to get King Kong.
I'm a big fan of that big old ape!!
Watched him when he first came to the screen.
And the remakes werent too bad, but the original is always the best.
So i really want to see this remake.
Trying to get Hostel too.
And Want to get Final Destity 3.
Seen all of them they were pretty cool.
Been playing with my graphics programs
too.
Been making crazy warped pics of my cats & funny animations.
It kills time.
It also keeps my mind off the fact that time is drawing near to make definet arrangements to go to California.
March is just around the corner.
I still get the mini panic attacks when I think of it.
But I'm gonna have to do it soon.